Totally random.

It just suddenly came into my mind. 

I remembered when i keep complaining to my mum, saying i dislike this course.

In the past, when i just got my o level results, i remembered i wanted to get into either SP or NAFA school (NanYang Academy Of Fine Arts). Before the results of lvl, I got the Direct Poly Admission for SP creative media design. I went through the interview and brought along my art works. Going through art tests and drawings SP gave me. I went nyp's interview too. & the interview gave me a phobia in getting into nyp. But in the end, SP accepted me. Not nyp. Means i got the dpa for sp's course and it also means, if my o lvl results ended up okay i can straight go study in sp. Howeverrrrrr, I failed my english. So, sp ''kick'' me out. I was thinking which sch should i go. & The most ''interesting thing'' is that, i remembered very clearly that before i leave nyp for the interview, i said one super nan ting hua.

''I die also won't choose this stupid school''. 

Yes, that was what i said ): & Now? I got into this school -.-

Before i get into nyp, i wanted to choose NAFA. Cause i really like the courses there very much. & Plus, my mum don't mind the expensive school fees there, what she say was, i go for what i like. Even if it's expensive, she pay for me. Super toucheddddd. But i didn't choose NAFA just because my relatives said there's no ''qian tu''. So i went for poly, and i forget why alrdy but nyp's courses was the first few i put. Maybe it's because i am moving soon tht time to near yck.

Till now actually, i don't know if i regret going into this school anot. 

Sometimes still, i will keep thinking why didn't i choose NAFA.

Think again, if i did not get into nyp, 

I would not have get into this course,  joined dance & make so many friends. I would not have know so many nice people in this school and would not have experience tht much. 

But maybe if i were in NAFA, everything would be different. 

But who knows wht will happen?

I know everyone is like encouraging me to study hard, i am forcing myself to study something, somehow i don't like. I am dissapointed with myself, i know i would dissapoint my mum for this semenster. I don't wna let my mum get sad over me, over me not putting in effort to study.

Yet, i can't force myself fully to study. 

I just wna say, ever since i am in poly, everything has changed. 

Me, myself. 

A drastic change in my life and myself. 

IF you have known me well for many yrs, you people would know and easily can observe.