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Saturday, February 28, 2009

I HAVE SHIFTED TO,

ohyousee.blogspot.com(:

9:25 PM

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DAMM.

Sick & Tired. Wokeup at 3 plus pm.

After yesterday's MGBDs visual and audio concert, we're year2s already.

It ended like around 10pm, we cleared everything the wires, tv, everything. Till very late already. Then still need carry the heavy road sign or something back to our block's level 5.

So damm heavy lor. After that we waited for one of our classmate before we go and eat dinner together. We haven't had any food for dinner then. Actually there's food for MGBDs before the concert starts, but our group was still rehearsing and we didn't get to eat. When we wanted to eat already no time, cause we're the first group.

Walk to amk to eat, i already not feeling well.

I didn't have appetite to eat although i'm hungry -.-

After eating, walk to amk mrt to take the last train we could take to kranji.

We decided to go qinghe's house to celebrate our end of studio project.

Take bus to jurong east. Walked for 1 hour -.- To qinghe's aunt's house.

I was like feeling super giddy already. But at that time, no one can acc me home and i have no money to take cab either. Cause after that when we went home in the morning, guixin pay the cab fee first. I ying cheng, followed, walked. Actually i was feeling really seriously super giddy and my eyes cannot even open. I felt like vomiting then, and i keep shivering even when i have already alight from that cold bus. Anyway, we haven't sleep for days already chionging and overnighting in sch studio to do work. When we reached the place, everyone were like playing so happily but i got no mood to even play, i sleep all the way there.

Went back, i am not feeling well super ultra uncomfortable.

& so today, I didn't went for dance.

Don't know why, sad now that i didn't go. I'll miss alot for sure.

★

& I am kind of angry and super pissed now.

Cause i don't want to be biptised.

If you people don't understand, what biptise means is, you will be a REAL TRUE CHRISTIAN.

Well, i don't mind going to church just for like.. You know.

I knew it myself that i am NOT devoted enough t god.

I don't want to be a real christian where by you must follow this and that everything.

BUT my mum is now forcing me to be biptised.

What shit is that?

Can't i even choose this religion kind of thing MYSELF?

I am already pissed when they force me everytime to go church.

Forcing me, controlling me.

Damm it, fuckshit. You people suck a whole damm shit.

4:09 PM

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today

Friday, February 27, 2009

Lazy.

FINALLY. Studio Project is done.

Today our visuals all will be shown in the audio and visual concert MGBDs present(:

At the amphi theatre 8pm(:

Will got some people performing then showing our visuals.

MUST GO :D okay, i have nothing to say already lol.

I am super tired yeah.

1:20 PM

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DEADSHIT.

Just now had rehearsal for our mgbd planned thingy.

For so many times, till 12am midnight :/

Now i am in studio, but today, I AM NOT GOING TO STAY OVERNIGHT ALREADY :/

Stayed for so many days already. Enough already :/ Never bath, Never wash, Never blabla.

I am now like a dirty piece of shit.

Friday, last day. Our tht concert will be held in the amphi theatre at 8pm.

Last day of studio proj.

I am also afraid i will be sick soon. & I am so cui now. Rly cui till.. So scared sat i will have no energy to dance already :/ D:

I AM REALLY CUI, NO PEOPLE WILL BELIEVE.

I lost the feel to blog already & there's now nothing rly nice for me to blog about :/

1:33 AM

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Shag.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Hello.

I stayed overnight in school again yesterday.

Studio Project, Studio Project.

It's all about studio project.

Maybe today will be staying overnight again.

My life's nothing but just school, studio project & classmates.

Stay tuned to friday's MGBDs present audio & visual concert. :D

1:27 PM

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一瞬间明白

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Yesterday stay overnight in school.

Today, as well. My today means yeah last night till this morning.

Overnight in school again. This time, worst. I felt like we were some crimminals or what.

We were actually not supposed to stay in school studio. But then we stayed, we got chased out twice. We went to hide. Hide and played games.

Hide till certain time, we sneaked in again. & work, play, laugh, sleep, shag..

Till now. Lesson later, 9.30am.

I don't know why, when we were hiding, it just seems like..

Like pathetic lor :/ Still ned hide. That feeling, nobody will know except MGBDs -.- :/

Ytd i slept for 2 hrs, today just now the whole night, i don't know how long i slept.

So tired at first but couldn't go to sleep. My friends slept for 1 hr and wake up to do proj again.

I cnnt even go to sleep, closed my eyes, cnnt sleep.

Like 6plus in morning, then i can sleep.

Went to the big table behind, everybody take turns to sleep there lol.

When you're tired, table seems so comfortable for you to sleep on too.

I never even bath or what. & tonight we going to stay in school till very late at night for the rehearsal of our visual and audio thingy.

SHAG.

I WANT TO WASH MY FACE PROPERLY.

I WANT TO BATH.

9:22 AM

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OMFG.

Monday, February 23, 2009

3 out of 7 rainbow(:

I AM OVERNIGHT-ING IN SCHOOL'S STUDIO.

Yes, now have the time blog, i am in studio.

Randy's dad is going to bring me and guixin back to yishun later.

Then we're going to sleep for 1 or 2 hours. Bathed and go to school again for the day.

Shag right? :/

I want carebear.

4:06 AM

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doomed

Saturday, February 21, 2009

My life now is just studio project, and still studio project.

I'm like meeting some of my grp ppl for continuous 2 weeks already.

Even saturday and sundays. Nothing but studio project. When isit gonna hell end?

Guixin, me and randy are like mentally crazy people just now in class.

We are like video-ing oursleves, playing and laughing but actually.. We're so frustrated.

I tell myself, i know i would sure fail alot of modules. & Now, yes i regret. So i must pass this studio project. Who wouldn't feel like crying?

I wanted to, but i already promise MYSELF not to & i must be happy to do this project.

I cannot be like last time already. Yes. Since i've already promised myself(:

Still.. I am very lost now.

GOODNIGHT.

i hope i have a carebear.

11:21 PM

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Friday, February 20, 2009

HELLO. I have been in class for studio project till night time with guixin & randy.

Laughters, & all. Ohyuh most funny thing is we brought our lappy to somewhr quiet and we video down we, acting as ahlian and ahbeng. LOL. Super funny. Classmates listen already laugh like mad :/ Okay, we were just acting, for the sake of fun :D

Super pissed at night with my cousin again, she's just so inconsiderate and childish. Don't wna say much about it already, spoil mood. Ate dinner with guixin at yishun then talk at our blocks downstairs till around 11pm, home sweet home.

Pictures. Guixin & randy are taking my bling bling stickers to stick onto their faces, acting like machiam they pierce ears, nose etc. lol, it looks fake though. Their retarded faces lor. lol.

I have sore throat. ): Sick soon? eh no way.

11:50 PM

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3d max

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Studio project again, today was from morning 9.30am till.. NIGHT. 10plus pm -.-

Cause we had our first somesort rehearsal to see if everything is okay at the Amphi Theatre.

Till 10plus, everybody haven't had their dinner, shucks man i tell you.

Since studio project starts, our eating timings are all so weird. Nevermind but anyway, i had bread for the 3 meals -.- I didn't eat for breakfast till i reached school.

Ate hotdog buns. Then lunch, sandwhich, dinner which is just now, burger.

ALL BREAD LEH WALAO. LOL. I haven't eat RICE for quite a long time.

I have no appetite to eat rice too. I just don't feel like swallowing rice. Okay but my mum bought fried rice just now, shall go eat a little later on.

OHYAH! First time today, i did 3d properly. I sat down to find tutorials and follow it to do.

My friends were shocked.. Yeah. Not surprise. Cause i don't do 3d all the time. Never listen in class, never do schwork, never touch 3d project too. I know i am sucha useless person.

At least nw for the first time, i tried to follow. & it didn't turn out that bad too (:

I know.. it's too late though.

Be happy, Be happy.

11:38 PM

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Argh.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

My parents are noisy ):

Why can't my dad and mum just talk nicely.

Both of them just don't answer each other back so much can?

Why can't they just give in to each other?

我的天.

Some people asked me to be their models for photoshoot in friendster.

Should i? No? Yuk, i don't even know that person.

But, i envy those models. Photoshoot, nice photographs. Grr.

11:41 PM

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2nd post of the day

This is the star game i played just now in studio. lol. boring. Isn't stars pretty? (:

I have no idea why i always post 2 posts when i have nothing to do.

Back home, super sleepy. I was sleeping throughout the talk just now in the electronic theatre. I have no idea what happened and what the girl showed us. Only know jasmine they all said the video inspired them. I don't even know what she showed cause as i said, i was sleeping throughout her whole talk Z___Z

After ms sherlyn showed us the 4 grps animatics, i felt more and more sleepy. Uh.

After the whole talk and all finished, i was still in my sleeping mood -.-

Like wire haven't pluck okay. Brain dead like shit. Lol.

Anyway i am watching the chinese show on channel 8 now{未來不是梦.

I dnt rly watch these shows now, but suddenly i felt that this show is so sweet lol. Some parts.

Oyuh, something totally spoil my mood today in class.

Cause ms sherlyn talked t me about my grades. Alot i failed and she said it will affect the other modules. I told her that first when my laptop die everything gone, i texted & called her really alot times but she didn't even reply me. I couldn't send her my first keynote when i was on mc that day. Then 3d project, my computer died in my brother's hand. I wanted to tell ms sherlyn about it. But think again, maybe she wouldn't even believe me. I didn't bother to tell her this already. But now, i regret. Maybe i could have done abit and tried showing her. I didn't. Not at all motivated to do anything when my computer and laptop died. First project, partnering work. Partner's laptop crash. So we didn't present. & ms sherlyn said my creative nonsense project also didn't did very well. Yeah so.. Anyway i do regret now but i know it's way too late. I am prepared to retake modules already ):

Actually now i suddenly have the little motivation to do studio project, i tell myself i must be happy doing it. But ms sherlyn said all those things, seriously spoil my mood and everything.

Okay, whatever.

9:11 PM

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GOD DAMM.

I WILL BE STAYING OVERNIGHT IN SCHOOL TODAY ):

Yes and i am in studio now with some of my grp mates. Scary. ):

Will blog if i have the time.

12:55 PM

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YAY.

I am in studio now again, as usual. Lol. didn't blog yesterday night, super tired after doing my style frames and i just fall asleep.

Wokeup in the morning to go national eye centre checkup. Got operation before when i was young. So every year need to go check. Just nice now my eyes are red and she checked and said it's serious allergy. To don't know what.. Know how she check? Heh, it's not normal open eyes see see only lor, they help me put drop into my eyes to check and after putting, what i see around me for awhile is in YELLOW colour. LOL tones of yellow can. Yuck HAHAHAH. &

Woohoo, guess what? Doctor sona said i don't nd to go already! :D From then on, it's open date. If there's anything wrong with my eyes then go see her. Yayyeeeeeee. But somehow, eahhh.. Abit miss the doctors and nurses there -.- Think again, i have been there for check up since i was young, the doctor are like seeing me since i was young? -.-

Heh, went school after checkup. Adam & Kenneth disturb me again! -.- I think they very funny lor. LOL. Okay, my style frames are done. But i think they're fugly though ):

I am super bored now! I am learning to be a happygirl now! :D Yay (:

12:55 PM

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A b c d e f g tired

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Colours colours. So pretty eh?

I am in studio now, ohmy nearly late today.

Super unlucky today loh ):

Wokeup late, nevermind. Then i went bath and change to my shorts & top. I realise my shorts is like too short, & it's very tight too. So i changed it again and again. I am alrdy gonna be late luh. Then nevermind still, lol i rush out and then realised i forget to bring ms sherlyn's art book, & my drawings which is needed to be scanned. Went back to take, i am already late lor!

Actually not super late uh. I chiong to mrt, realised again.. I forget my exlink card -.-

Woahhh.. LAO eeeahhhhh. Waste money to buy standard ticket lor. I wanted to actually buy my mrt concession today one. Then uh, nvm.

Luckily i chiong to sch(: Guixin still shocked why i so fast lol. She thought i am gonna be super late. Eh no uh, i this time because of this studio project really seriously got force myself to wake everyday lor. Compare with normally sch days, everytime i late, skipppppppp -.-

Okay, just went for break just now. No appetite to eat.

Like for more then 1 week alrdy, no appetite.

My eyes have been red and itchy for going 1 month already.

I am so scared, tml have to go back check up at national eye centre.

Op before, have to go back every year. Sigh.

Be happy yo!(: Hokay..

12:54 PM

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SCREEN SHOT

HAHAHAHA. Lame. Looks fugly though :/

My 5 characters.

Couldn't sleep still.. Sigh. Headache, body aches, neck pain, stomach unwell.

Lmaos. I feel abit sick ):

Anyway i am used t it already. I don't know if it's my ''xin li zhuo yong'' or what.

Whenever i stop dancing for like during exam breaks, my neck all will start to pain. I will feel like never dance, like whole body feels so weird?

If i everytime dance, my neck won't pain leh! :D Lol, okay might sounds abit lame :/

But i miss dance ):

I think when dance starts again, my body already harden alrdy -.-

Studio project, not like other people's exam so fast will end. Ours like continuous 3 weeks ):

Whenever i am done with my work in school i already feel so damm tired. & I feel like sleeping. Felt so stress. But in order to make myself happy, i must.. Yalah be happy lol, keep laughing, playing joking around. De-stress lor :/ But when i reach home i alrdy like, half K.O luh :/

But again, i cnnt go to sleep, no idea why. Till very late, then i can sleep..

Really like, killing me. So little sleep lor. I wna sleep, not i don't want.

I am a pig man, who doesn't love to sleep? :D

Okay, so i must be happy! :D

2:53 AM

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boring yet fun

Monday, February 16, 2009

tolerating.

Hello people :D

I'm back home. Lol, studio project in school as usual.

After that, ard evening my grp people all leave school to meet their friends and boyfs.

Omg i so no life, i hate going home cause i have got nothing t do.

I stayed in school :D Don't mind staying in school cause so many other classmates and friends to accompany. & Yeah, went to have dinner with yvonne, yixin, edner, peggy, xinyi. Heh.

Then went back, went scan design stuffs with yvonne, talked alot with her. HAHAHA.

Went back class, all guys play left for dead till like SUPER MAD LA! They're like, shouting till like omfgggg-.- HAHAHAH but still idk why watching them play is like so fun -.-

& my classmates are so fun! Esp those keep disturbing me -.-

Okay, my eyes is super itchy now ): Itch for like more then 2 weeks alrdy, red somemore :/

Okay, off to watch my tv(:

O I ate 3 eggs today! :O

10:51 PM

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Sunday, February 15, 2009

Choose a star & Make a wish(:!

My niece like this video. HAHAHAH! Got stars too :D

Niece love stars, same as me! Stars are like faces smiling at me(:

I just randomly find this video for niece :D

And she got addicted. Hahahahaa.

Please say it's cute too! HAHAHAHA.

Okay..

SOMEONE ENTERTAIN ME PLEASE :/!

I'm bored, seriously bored ): Just watched the tv, wu lin da dao :D

Ohmy, shitty shit, i hvnt trace those things i am supposed to do :/

Oh wells, i hvnt recieve those pictures i shld trace from my friends.

I AM SHOCKED TODAY, cause guixin said MY DAD'S HANDSOME. Lol.

Randomness :/ lol.

I am bored i am bored. I feel like i hvnt sleep for ages.

But then again, don't know what's stopping me to go to sleep -.-

Tomorrow i still need to reach sch by 8.45 am cause of the design department thingy. Argh ):

Initially is 8.30am, but i shang liang with yvonne. 15mins more of sleep. HAHAHA.

11:17 PM

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LALALA.

Back home(:

Meet guixin at yishun and randy at admiratly then off to walk to woodlands CC to watch our senior the percausion grp prac(: Super cool lor, but the sound rly is can make your ears DEAF.

Lol. HAHAHAH, but it's fun leh. Then aft tht went discuss our proj at cck lot1 mac, then walk walk talk talk, went library. We got warned and asked to leave the library :/ lol. Cause of many things, common sense la. Confirm knew what happened. LOL. Okay, went back yishun with guixin and home sweet home! update again later :D

8:56 PM

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Tomorrow.

ZOMG, i got tricked again! D:

Now then i know. I got tricked by kenneth and adam again. ZZZZ. LOL.

Everytime i kana tricked walaos): Dance ppl, friends, all always like to tricked me -.-

Xia suay LOL :/ dont wna say already la LOL.

Tomorrow NEED TO GO MEET GRP MATES TO DISCUSS.. Bla everyting about.. STUDIO PROJECT AGAIN. -.- ARGH! I hate it. Today alrdy sat nd go sch, tml sunday i wna sleep also cnnt lol. Uh forget it. tskkkkkkkkk.

12:54 AM

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2nd post of the day

Saturday, February 14, 2009

My 2nd post of the day!

Saw this in angela's blog :D I am bored y'know(: Yeah. SO. HAHAH.

Ten are yous

1)Are you single: Yes.

2)Are you happy: Not really?

3)Are you bored: Basket, my 2nd sentence of this post alrdy shows. lol.

4)Are you fair: As in?

5)Are you italian: No.

6)Are you intelligent: I am dumb. LOL.

7)Are you honest: Mr james says so, idk.

8)Are you nice: Depends(:

9)Are you irish: No.

10)Are you asian: OF COURSE.

Ten facts

1) Fullame: Chang YiLing

2)Nicknames: 10, Ling.

3)Birth place: Glen Eagles.

4)Hair colour: Black.

5)Natural hairstyle: Curly.

6)Eye colour: Black.

9)Favourite colour: Red, Orange, Grey.

10)One place you did like to visit: Don't know....... lol.

(angela, there's not even no 8, is no 7 too) lol.

Ten things about your love life

1)Have you ever been in love: Not counted.

2)Do you believe in love at first sight: No. Yes? idk. lol

3)Do you currently have a crush: If you think yes, then yes lor, no then no lor. lol. Dont wna say(: -.- Tricky?-.-

4)Have you ever been hurt emotionally: Of course... arshole.

5)Have you ever broken someone's heart: Yeah. lol.

6)Have you ever had your heart broken: Of course yes. arsehole :/

7)Have you ever liked someone but never told them: Yeah la.

8)Are you afraid of commitment: No.

9)Who was the last person you hugged: Forget laaaaaaa. i nvr always hug ppl hokay!

10)Who was the last person you said i love you to: Forget already?

Ten this or that

1)Love or lust: What's lust lol. :/

2)Hard liquor or beer: None.

3) Cats or dogs: Dogs.

4)Few best friends or any regular friends: Few best friends of course.

5)Creamy or crunchy: Crunchy.

6) Pencil or pen: Both as long as i can use them t draw (:

7)Wild night out or romantic night in: Romantic night in.

8)Money or hapiness: Happiness la-.-

9)Night or day: Don't know.

10)Im or phone: What's im? LOL. :/ Omg i am so dumb.

Ten have you ever

1)Been caught sneaking out: Er... Don't think so.

2)Seen a polar bear: Yes la, who never? -.-

3)Done something you regret: YES.

4)Bungee jumped: Huh?

5)Eaten food that fell on the floor: You eat first lor. lol.

6)Finished an entire jaw breaker: ??

7)Been caught naked: Young time? LOL.

8)Wanted an ex bf or gf back: No.

9)Cried because you lost a pet: No.

10)Wanted to dissapear: Yes ):

Ten preferences in a partner

1)Smile or eyes: Smile.

2)Light or dark hair: Dark.

3)Hugs or kisses: Hugs?

4)Shorter or taller: Taller.

5)Intelligence or attraction: Intelligence.

6)Topman or zera: Huh?

7) Funny or serious: Funny.

8)Older or younger: Older then me, abit.

9)Outgoing or quiet: Outgoing.

10)Sweet or bad: Sweet.

Ten have yous

1)Ever performed in front of a large crowd: Yes.

2)Ever talked on the phone for longer then 1 hr: Yes.

3)Ever tried walking on your hands: Yes. Swimming pool.

4)Ever been to a rock concert: No.

5)Ever been in a cheerleading team: No. But i wanted to. lol.

6)Ever been in a dance team: Yes(:

7)Ever been in a sports ream: No.

8)Ever been in a drama play or production: Yes(:

9)Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley: No!

10)Ever been in a rap video?: No.

Ten lasts

1)Last phone call you made: Aunt.

2)Last person you hugged: Forget leh. I seldom hug people LOL!

3)Last person you hung out with: Eh.. Sister.

4)Last time you worked: Years ago lol.

5)Last person you talked to: Cousin.

6)Last person you Im'd: Whats IM? :/

7)Last person you texted: Angelyn.

8)Last person you went t the movies with: Minghong, zhiwei, Auns( his name is really anus -.-) & Sister.

9)Last person/ thing you missed: Huh? As in. :/

10)Last website visited: Blogspot

Ten people to do this

ANYONE! Everytime i tagged people, they say they're not so boliao as me-.-

8:49 PM

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Tired.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE OUT THERE :D

Tired. So tired.

Argh, went school in the morning to meet design department classmates. Room cannot open, ms sherlyn came down to open for us. Oyuh, ms sherlyn's art books are awesome. Her drawings are awesome too. Reach there, after awhile, yvonne's team also came for their own grp discussion. & after awhile again, zuby's team came too.

Class is super HOT, no aircon -.- After around afternoon, classmates start to leave.

Only left me, josephine and yvonne's team members. They're playing LEFT OR DEAD while me.. I went to the back of class, the big table and went up there to sleep. LOL.

Sleep for very long :/ Adam said they play so long, saw me still sleeping. Kenneth said i was SNORRING-.- I don't think i was lor? Somemore their left or dead play so loud, can't be my snorring so loud. LOL. HAHAHAHA. Anyway, although i am abit sian and tired cause i have to spend my saturday in studio but it's quite fun too. Blasting music, seeing my clasdsmates shouting and playing left or dead. Got them, also not sian :D

I see the 3 guys playing are like so funny. I remembered their names in the games was like..

ASH-HOLE, PUNAT-.- LOL! and they keep 'fuck' here and there while playing, what mother fucker, fucker.. What plank call, HAHAHAHA. Okay, people won't understand. Cause plank call are like ashton they all making fun of yvonne's spelling! HAHAHA it's supposed to be PRANK CALL.

Hahaha, but it's so fun today.

Still, happy v.day to everyone (:

7:44 PM

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Friday, February 13, 2009

TML IS ONLY THE 6TH DAY OF STUDIO PROJECT, 2 MORE WEEKS TO GO ): DAMM><

Tml still needa go sch! SAT LEH ):

Edited(:

Just back home :D Hurray, tml is Valentine's Day! But ..

I have to celebrate It with MGBD classmates, cause we have to have a meeting again for studio project. Oh well.. Nevermind then, hack. Even if it's valentine's day, nobody would date me out i guess. HAHAHAHA.

Kind of pissed today cause of studio project and some people in our class, and some other stuffs. I guess my mood isn't right today in class. Keep got pissed off so easily. I think some of my classmates are also pissed with some other classmates in our class. Just that obviously we don't say it out to those people we hate. I am not scared t say it out here cause i am sure everyone have people they dislike in class. Just that everyone keeps quiet to avoid.. Quarrels.

Everyone is like, tolerating & tolerating.

After studio proj, went back to aunt's house to drink soup, she cooked my share. Then, went out with aunt with my cousin & niece.

Cousin bought me valentine present. HAHAHA. Okay, at least i have something from cousin, better then getting nothing from no one (:

Dued pictures.

These pictures are taken when lecturers are talking in our studio :/

We were like playing non stop and giggling laughing. I should be happy cause i have alot friends, always so cheerful making me laugh. I think other people might not have so funny friends. LOL :/ HAHAHA, just look at the girl above, KOH GUIXIN, always the JOKER & DUH.. Seriously, always making me laugh.

& I miss dancing. I miss dance, i miss my dancemates. ):

10:42 PM

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ENOUGH.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I am super pissed now. Much if sad and dissapointed then pissed actually.

It's not the first time already. When our grp are talking to mr james about concept, my cousin keep calling me. I ignored the calls. After they've finished talking to mr james, i called back.

My cousin just asked me, end school tell me, i meet you go back.

I told her, wait long long lor cause i have design department meeting till night.

She was like, aiyah dont need care you already la meet meet meet everyday meet dont know for what shit, don't need say la, meet enough alrdy dnt nd care cousins.

& I WAS LIKE, WHAT THE FUCK?! I am meeting for studio project come on you ass.

FUCK YOU OKAY. I still haven't talk finish she kap my phone. Fine, enough of these.

I went to my aunt house to see my niece, cousin was there too.

She asked me, YOU DOING BIG BUSINESS MEH? EVERYDAY MEET MEET MEET. FOR WHAT. I said, I. HAVE. STUDIO PROJECT.

Then she was like, woah everyday you also say got project dnt know real or not. Yalah, whatever. even yr mum says you eevrytime meet meet meet.

WAPIANG, ENOUGH ALRDY CAN. I went back and tell my mum, My mum says she just told her i got projs till very late. She go anyhow what, make up story?

I am already feeling seriously pissed enough for this sproj alrdy can.

IF YOU DNT TRUST AND BELIEVE ME IN SCH DOING, WHY BOTHER STILL CALL ME AND ASK? EXTRA OKAY. Just don't call, save my breathe and yr phone bills.

Enough, i rly have enough. I nearly teared after she kap my phone.

Is like, ppl dnt even trust you, still scold you & all. When what you say is true.

How would you feel? tell me.

VALENTINE DAY PLEASE QUICKLY, OVER.....

WOAH... no one to spend with me valentines day enough alr, now still have to celebrate in sch cause got proj, maybe ):

STUDIO PROJ LAST TILL 26feb, everyday... tell me how to survive.

9:27 PM

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BORED.

In school now as usual for studio project.

I am seriously very bored lor. Okay i got the pictures from guixin already but i won't upload all. HAHAHAHA, Guess who is this? :/ (so obvious)-.- LOL.

IT'S ME! :D HAHAHA, handsome? LOL. Guixin say very handsome, ask me pose. LOL.

Okay la, LAME. That was randy's cap. & Funny is today when i show jasmine this pic, she thought it was randy himself. HAHAHAH! Means i very handsome lor! LOL.

both pictures was when yesterday we went out to discuss Sp w/o hazel and jasmine as they couldn't come.

I am pro at reading malay books. LOL!

Okay, i am very bored. Buhbye. LOL.

6:35 PM

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Not anymore.

i really super love this kind of dolls :D

& I'm in love with this doll. I wna buy. Soon. I hope. Save $$$$$ ):

It's super expensive, my friend bought from overseas, like at least 500. & Some is just the body itself w/o the clothes and everything.

Suddenly, i remember I told my mum that i wna study the Makeup Special Effects BodyArt Course Full time one after i graduate. Then my mum told me i still have to think of the expenses during this studying if i rly want. It's not like save money okay save lor. Like that.. Sigh.

Okay, studio project er....

Sucks.

Goodbye(:

6:35 PM

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the dumb side of me

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I am too dumb to believe what i have read-.-

My friend's msn nick was ''i've been struck by lightning for 7 times''.

I went believe & asked her rly 7times?

Even after she replied me, 7times, she die dont know till where alrdy, i still went ask her-

''how to know if you're being struck?''

then she told me it's a movie phrase -.-

Many of my friends said i am naive and trusting people too much.

Cause i believe whatever i read or people say.

Now, this lightning thingy convince myself more that i am seriously dumb.

Okay enough :/

I am really ... DUMB.

10:42 PM

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STUDIO PROJECT F.you

What the fuck! So sian half now lor ):

I WANT DANCE BUT I CANNOT ): Cause of that fucking studio project.

Our cca the instructor's dance studio invited us to put up an item on 27feb then there will rehearsals before that. They're asking who are free. I want! ):

Wtfffffffuck can, i have sp everyday, is like gen ben dou cannot one lor ):

Fuck la studio proj, tmd go die.

Today still have to meet the design department.

Woah, i have enough projs already la.

I knwo 3d proj i giveup just because my computer dies, now this studio project i cnnt giveup halfway or something. ):

Sigh, nothing to say.

2:13 PM

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Don't take my sunshine away.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 三叔 :D !

Went school today as usual, studio proj continues.

Everybody like super stress, can see overall leaders incharge of our class's live performance and visuals are very super stress. Will be held in omni eatre? Near stadium. Near tht day which is 26feb, they will put up posters in canteen and all. Yeah so people can come and see the performance and our visuals works. Oh wells. Sigh):

Arghhh, design department is super chionging. So many things to be done in sucha little time. Oh mannnnnnn. Okay, after everything went meet sis and go san shu's house to celebrate his birthday(: My cousins went chinatown's ''sex shop'' buy give him uncle a cup which has.... Z___Z

Lol so funny. Tht shop, i rmb bugis street also have :/ lol.

''feeding'' san shu nothing with his this cup -.- LOL. I think my cousins are crazy.

Okay, tml design department still need to meetup. Although tml actually is free day for grp discussion and whatever shit. Still got animation HUH!? ):

Okay, forget it.

Goodbye. & nights.

10:56 PM

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1st day of STUDIO PROJECT

Monday, February 9, 2009

Surreal surreal surreal.

OMFG, today's the first day of our studio project, like other people have exams while we have this SP. I chiong out today thinking i will be late. In the end reach class, none of my grp members reached loh.

Anyway, i can already feel the stress today. Through the stress, i become super high in class.

Cause of the stress which makes me go crazy.

We are doing a live performance, visuals all. So on 26 is the day we present our work at the ATRIUM there. Omg :/ People if you know, can go take a look on that day.

I am under the design department. Okay, i didn't really regret..

But it seems like this department got more things to chiong? :/

Chiong chiong chiong. I can see the overall leader and in charge of our class for this sp, ashton and peggy they're very stress. Hmmm, but they're good leaders :D to me.

Neyway, i think i am also nt feeling well at the wrong timing. Maybe it's not wrong timing but just i will feel sick when i am stress. My mum says she realised. But i keep ren ren ren and ren today. Went home, felt like vomiting man ): I keep gng to toilet but then in the end i will ren. Now feeling abit okay only ): Arghhhhh. Periods annd stress TOTALLY spoil everything man! Okayokay, i wna go watch my show then go draw my stuffs ): Sighhhhhh.

Sp, quickly end soon. I must ren till th end ):

9:07 PM

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EDITED.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Went church today, then to facial. Went home, goddaughter(niece) at my house.

Pictures, && Pictures. *OH, SPOT MY FATHER YEAH? -.- :/ Don't laugh.

I didn't edit any pictures at all yeah :/ & Every picture, i am w/o any makeup. Omg so cui yeah? Look at my eye bags and hei yan quan. LOL. No makeup at all.. Tsktsk. Not even a little power i will put normally.

Sister.